Eric, responded to your email about tantrica recording. It bounced back to here. I would love to hear it. As for your masturbation exploits into self love, I feel a kinship as a counterpart self (ala the Seth material) that generates a sense of compression. The path not as realized but so familiar.
Eric, this is your best description yet of the context of book of blue. The density of the space and the relational intensity of sharing interiors so deeply erotic. Your discipline to hold "your rudder" on your journey for 4 years is a dedication that the goddess can't deny. The agents she has sent and your recognition of her presence through them is a testimony of significance. The clarity you seek is a story I hope you will share. Holy is the grail!
hi Denis, when you say share, what do you mean? There are elements that I'm describing here vividly for the first time. I think that the frontier of eroticizing 'no' has some vitality to it. It washes out a lot of issues on various sides of the sex and gender divide. It speaks directly to the theme of autonomy and choice. Much of the gray area of so-called consent relates to the problem of lacking a clear no, and having a mutual understanding of what it means to make a sexual choice. When the sex is removed, the nature of the sexual choice becomes much more obvious.
<< Which do you prefer, self sex or sex with a partner? >>
I appreciate your questions. The twio are not mutually exclusive. For me one of the most intimate and beautiful forms of sex invovles masturbating with a partner. My concept of Blue Tantra is about masturbating togther, same sex and mixed sex....individuals and couples...
After four years of only selfsex, it's a stretch to imagine partnersex, though I'm getting there. Most of my partnered masturbation during these four years has been with only me naked, on agreement of both parties.
I've gone into a deep inner space though I love the company of women and sometimes of men when I make love to myself, and I adore masturbating with others...witnessing and holding space for them in the mirror. My most beloved form of sex with women is cunnilingus and there is no actual match for that though I can convey that into thirst for myself. I love fucking and eye contact at orgasm.
In a perfect world I would have a blend of all of these things. And I can take deep pleasure in various hybrid forms, such as mirror masturbating while a couple fucks.
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Adding a little more: there is my preferred sex and then the deep bliss of orgasm and the quaity of surrender...and what has made it possible to be masturbatiaon celibate for four years is the surprising shock of pleasure in certain kinds of selfgiven orgasm. The first is a 'no vagina' orgasm with a woman present. I keep playing the Eric-Eryka audio, where she says, "you will never suck my cunt; you will suck cunt again." That kind...of emotional space...and I orgasm into selfmarriage
Then there is the expeience of a man masturbating into my hand, and I masturnate with his warm fresh semen. As much as I can bliss out on cunt and womanly orgasm andfulfillment spilling or gushing into my mouth...masturbating wth a man's semen sends me spiraling in a way that noody ever mentioned in sex ed, even if you include 25-1/2 genders. I'm about to write a new Book if Blue piece on such an exprience. I also cover it in The Wman's Book of Secrets...currently in Book of Blue but I'll post it to Psycherotica,,,
Eric, responded to your email about tantrica recording. It bounced back to here. I would love to hear it. As for your masturbation exploits into self love, I feel a kinship as a counterpart self (ala the Seth material) that generates a sense of compression. The path not as realized but so familiar.
Eric, I was referring to the type of personal clarity you are seeking.
Eric, this is your best description yet of the context of book of blue. The density of the space and the relational intensity of sharing interiors so deeply erotic. Your discipline to hold "your rudder" on your journey for 4 years is a dedication that the goddess can't deny. The agents she has sent and your recognition of her presence through them is a testimony of significance. The clarity you seek is a story I hope you will share. Holy is the grail!
hi Denis, when you say share, what do you mean? There are elements that I'm describing here vividly for the first time. I think that the frontier of eroticizing 'no' has some vitality to it. It washes out a lot of issues on various sides of the sex and gender divide. It speaks directly to the theme of autonomy and choice. Much of the gray area of so-called consent relates to the problem of lacking a clear no, and having a mutual understanding of what it means to make a sexual choice. When the sex is removed, the nature of the sexual choice becomes much more obvious.
<< Which do you prefer, self sex or sex with a partner? >>
I appreciate your questions. The twio are not mutually exclusive. For me one of the most intimate and beautiful forms of sex invovles masturbating with a partner. My concept of Blue Tantra is about masturbating togther, same sex and mixed sex....individuals and couples...
After four years of only selfsex, it's a stretch to imagine partnersex, though I'm getting there. Most of my partnered masturbation during these four years has been with only me naked, on agreement of both parties.
I've gone into a deep inner space though I love the company of women and sometimes of men when I make love to myself, and I adore masturbating with others...witnessing and holding space for them in the mirror. My most beloved form of sex with women is cunnilingus and there is no actual match for that though I can convey that into thirst for myself. I love fucking and eye contact at orgasm.
In a perfect world I would have a blend of all of these things. And I can take deep pleasure in various hybrid forms, such as mirror masturbating while a couple fucks.
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Adding a little more: there is my preferred sex and then the deep bliss of orgasm and the quaity of surrender...and what has made it possible to be masturbatiaon celibate for four years is the surprising shock of pleasure in certain kinds of selfgiven orgasm. The first is a 'no vagina' orgasm with a woman present. I keep playing the Eric-Eryka audio, where she says, "you will never suck my cunt; you will suck cunt again." That kind...of emotional space...and I orgasm into selfmarriage
Then there is the expeience of a man masturbating into my hand, and I masturnate with his warm fresh semen. As much as I can bliss out on cunt and womanly orgasm andfulfillment spilling or gushing into my mouth...masturbating wth a man's semen sends me spiraling in a way that noody ever mentioned in sex ed, even if you include 25-1/2 genders. I'm about to write a new Book if Blue piece on such an exprience. I also cover it in The Wman's Book of Secrets...currently in Book of Blue but I'll post it to Psycherotica,,,