I needed her to do this for me, before I could do that for me with her help, her approval, her maternal guidance into my completed ego. I understand the implication of needing approval and witness to allow myself to feel this much bliss. I do understand the paradox of my masturbation. If not for Crys, I would not be able to show you this. That’s because you’ll be distracted by her and not notice that I’m fucking my mouth and my ass. She saw me go through the whole drama of ejaculating onto my cummy cummy mirror, laying on my belly and licking up my sperm. That’s why she’s there…all rituals of pleasure are under my dominion.
